Suck at Blogging

Okay, Day 6 and I am doing okay with the Paleo thing, but actually am leaning towards changing to Primal even though I started this to be Paleo. I find that I suck at blogging pretty much and I get very depressed as a non-smoker. Am thinking about sticking with the Paleo/Primal challenge part and nixing the smoking until after the 30 days or so. Feeling pretty overwhelmed and like a full blown mental case.

Day 4 and Feeling a little lost

Today has felt odd. I went into this well aware that there would be days in the first 2 weeks that would be challenging. It is funny but the little gentle nagging of the evil side is actually more dangerous than the all out crazies in a way. It is like you are trying to sabotage yourself with little rationalizations about things. I guess that is the importance of making this a THIRTY day challenge and not going full blown thinking I will never do or have anything ever again. I know I am rambling, but today I am actually quite spacy and depressed. I am so looking forward to getting off work for the day and spending a nice, quiet night with Abby (my dog). I am super lethargic today. I am trying not to over think what I am eating so long as I stick to the guidelines of my challenge because that is just a trap. Like I wasn't that hungry so for lunch I had banana, blueberries and some almond butter then started thinking that I should have just had the chicken and veggies that I wasn't in the mood for - no I shouldn't have had the chicken and veggies because I really didn't want them. I have to just let go. I am following the guidelines and that is all I want to do. I do not want to chase and fail at perfectionism. I want to be happy and do well. And . . . I am.

Day 3

Exciting title, heh? I am doing well on my paleo diet/not smoking challenge, but am feeling a bit blah today which I believe is normal at the beginning because of various factors from sugar and nicotine withdrawals to lower blood sugar levels, etc. I am not smoking but am weaning off of nicotine with a nicotine replacement aid (e-cig) so the levels are much lower than when I was smoking. The wod today was a 5k run or 25 minutes, whichever comes first and the 25 minutes came first for me. My lower legs were full of lactic acid and hurting super bad and I had GI issues from the time I woke up until later in the morning, so that affected my performance or lack thereof. I am still sore from the weekend wods, but today it feels good. I am getting a massage tonight which will be nice timing wise and will help with the soreness and help to get the detox done quicker. I think once my body adjusts and gives me more energy, my posts will be better, but I wanted to at least get something down today since I haven't blogged since my start date!