Day 4 and Feeling a little lost

Today has felt odd. I went into this well aware that there would be days in the first 2 weeks that would be challenging. It is funny but the little gentle nagging of the evil side is actually more dangerous than the all out crazies in a way. It is like you are trying to sabotage yourself with little rationalizations about things. I guess that is the importance of making this a THIRTY day challenge and not going full blown thinking I will never do or have anything ever again. I know I am rambling, but today I am actually quite spacy and depressed. I am so looking forward to getting off work for the day and spending a nice, quiet night with Abby (my dog). I am super lethargic today. I am trying not to over think what I am eating so long as I stick to the guidelines of my challenge because that is just a trap. Like I wasn't that hungry so for lunch I had banana, blueberries and some almond butter then started thinking that I should have just had the chicken and veggies that I wasn't in the mood for - no I shouldn't have had the chicken and veggies because I really didn't want them. I have to just let go. I am following the guidelines and that is all I want to do. I do not want to chase and fail at perfectionism. I want to be happy and do well. And . . . I am.